Evangelist Philip Schipper

Been musing on Genesis 22 after a bit of a rough stretch in our road.  I always read the narrative with the thought that Abraham descended the slope of Mount Moriah with his hands in the air and a shout of victory on his lips.  We know what he told the young men that accompanied Abraham and Isaac on their journey to Moriah.  He stated that both he and the lad would come again.  Clearly he believed that God could and indeed would raise Isaac if indeed he was required to take the life of his son.  This test revealed to God Abraham's love and commitment - he withheld NOTHING from God.  HE PASSED THE TEST!
I began to wonder, as he descended the mountain, if he felt like he passed the test.  Is it possible that he walked away from this event with deep introspection and questions as to why God would require him to deal with all the human emotions that he experienced on the 3 day ordeal?  Did he wonder why God would allow him to come within arms length of taking his own sons life?  Did he wonder if he could really go through with this command?  Did he struggle with doubt?  The text leaves these questions open to conjecture.  
I am keenly aware that there are events that play out in the lives of God's people that they do not understand while in the midst of them or even for some time after the event is finished.  What are we to do when we don't understand the "why" and can't see the "way".  We must hold on to that which never changes.  Hebrews 13:5 states, "...for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee."